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• Comment on God’s Positioning System (GPS) by lifession

  Posted: May 16, 2012, 11:42 pm by lifession

  Pastor M, great sermon. Just finished watching the YouTube video. Blessings

• Comment on God’s Positioning System (GPS) by Kat

  Posted: May 16, 2012, 6:29 pm by Kat

  Your words warm my spirit. Its been almost four years since I attended church… I guess I broke up with God. I have read your sermon and am kinda reminded of why I fell inlove with Him in the first place. I wish He would sometimes let us know his answer (or maybe I just can’t hear Him).

  I stopped seeing the point of praying when His will always dominates. Now, I just yell at Him and tell Him it doesn’t matter what I say…He will do what He wants anyway.

  You say its about connecting, moving from struggling to surrendering… I like that. Maybe that’s it. I will give it a try.

  Thank you.

• Comment on God’s Positioning System (GPS) by Theatre boy

  Posted: May 16, 2012, 10:37 am by Theatre boy

  i wasn’t able to attend the services but reading it online i thank God for speaking to me through you..I now understand how connecting with God is very important in my life n even though i pray i’m gonna learn to b patient for God’s time z the best time.baraka mayne

• Comment on God’s Positioning System (GPS) by Voke

  Posted: May 16, 2012, 7:57 am by Voke

  Pole Graceous praise and worship will do it we .It is also good to get it a fellowship(LG) .Stand on God word weeping may endure for a night but joy comes in the morning.He watching is word to perform so the day you stopped reading you strengthened the enemy camp so go back n read .I will pray for you .baraka.

• Comment on God’s Positioning System (GPS) by God's precious daughter

  Posted: May 15, 2012, 12:04 am by God's precious daughter

  Pastor M,
  Greetings to you and the whole of Mavuno fraternity.Last week I came to church as a normal ritual that I have done for very many years.I came not knowing what to expect but Pastor M,you were God sent that morning.
  You see,I have been hurt before.I have endured the pain of two serious broken relationships in the recent past that I had thought would end up in marriage. In fact in my last relationship,I had visualised my wedding gown and the guest list.Nothing whatsoever, had prepared me for the brokenness and the heart ache that I would endure,after that relationship ended prematurely.
  To make matters worse,I do not consider myself an ordinary everyday woman.I am not trying to brag about my beauty but whenever I enter a building,heads turn.I am also outgoing,humorous,intelligent and have a great attitude.I have also avoided sleeping with all the men I date.With that,you would think that I would be saved from the horrors of break ups but where?
  After having surrendered those men on the cross in Pastor S’s sermon last month,this month in your sermon,God showed me why I had to let them go.As I sat down to listen to you,the message started killing me softly then quickly.God showed me the inner and outer beauty within me,and why he would do anything to preserve me from the fowler’s snare.I know for sure that God wants me to do extraordinary exploits,and with it he will have to align me with both extra ordinary men and women,my future husband being no exception to this.
  With that I am blessing the Lord all the way for my broken dreams. Just like your daughter with the painful jabs she had to endure at the doctors clinic,I may not have understood then what was happening to my life but now I know.God always knew and he still knows what’s best for me.

• Comment on God’s Positioning System (GPS) by graceous

  Posted: May 15, 2012, 7:53 pm by graceous

  Hi Pastor M
  I loved your sermon but truth be told, i wasnt attentive. I was busy fighting back tears and no matter how much sense the sermon made – I just couldn’t connect. What haven’t I done in my search for God?? I have fasted and prayed but nothing is forthcoming.

  God has literally over-exposed me to pain and shame, such that I among all other problems people around me have, I am the biggest problem. God has come through for me several times but on this one, He has completely forgoten about me. Sometimes I start to pray and I find myself crying hopelessly, I can hardly read the bible.

  For the last one and half years, my life has known no peace and I’m slowly beginning to lose strength. I know God is faithful, but why Has he chosen to ignore my desparate plea for help?Despite all this, I know I need to continue trusting in Him, He is the only one who can sort out the mess that my life has become. But how can I pray?? I need to know how because my prayer starts with ‘O God…..’ followed by uncontrollable weeping, and that’s it. I’m desparate, please heeeeeelp…

• Comment on Personal Trainer by Maggie K

  Posted: May 15, 2012, 12:04 pm by Maggie K

  Phenomenal!! I’m a single mom to a handsome boy, he will be turning 4 in July. Baby-daddy and I fell out, and he ain’t involved in my son’s life…actually, he has never seen the boy yet he is alive and lives in this town (read: Nairobi).

  I did forgive him for what he did and I know that by the Grace of God, I have let go. I ain’t mad at men and I know I will meet up some great guy to be my hubby and daddy to my son. Truth be told, I do feel bad that the guy walked away from my son….he is an innocent boy and did nothing.

  Pastor M, your sermon has really helped me out. I know that even when I neither understand nor have all the answers, I can put all my trust in our Daddy cause He has something greater and better for my son and I.

  Thank you so much Pasi

• Comment on God’s Positioning System (GPS) by Voke

  Posted: May 15, 2012, 9:33 am by Voke

  Baraka pasi for the wonderful sermon but i felt convicted to say this that we should avoid familiarity with God despite him being our friend and father.HE is holy and that is the standard n without holiness no one will see God.BARAKA

• Comment on God’s Positioning System (GPS) by chris makau

  Posted: May 14, 2012, 7:43 pm by chris makau

  Am still young in faith so young sometimes I don’t know what am doing,I don’t even know who I am anymore but I know who I wanna be,I sin and am glad I attend church when I do because you help me understand God.Pray so I may know God better and next service as you keep talking to me say it as it is and only then will I know God said it I believe he is real.

• Comment on God’s Positioning System (GPS) by King'ori J. Maina

  Posted: May 14, 2012, 6:31 pm by King'ori J. Maina

  Lee,

  You can easily subscribe to the blog via email. On the homepage of the site… there is a subscribe to email box that you can use to sign up. Let me know if you have any trouble with that…

• Comment on God’s Positioning System (GPS) by Nimu

  Posted: May 14, 2012, 3:47 pm by Nimu

  Thanks Pst M for the great message. Personally what touched me the most is the growth I have seen in you as a person. I have been in Mavuno for the last two years and have heard almost all your sermons. I sense God is stretching you to knew heights all for his glory. Thank you for agreeing to be used by him…

• Comment on God’s Positioning System (GPS) by Connecting....

  Posted: May 14, 2012, 3:34 pm by Connecting....

  That sermon was right on the money! and I heard the song to match..”Already there” by Casting crowns..
  Thanks Pastor M for letting God use you..You are a blessing.

• Comment on God’s Positioning System (GPS) by Gladdie

  Posted: May 14, 2012, 2:50 pm by Gladdie

  Yesterday was a new beginning for me. I am a prayerful person but my prayers are always ‘me-centred’ and mostly intense when faced with a difficult situation. Am glad it was revealed to me clearly the reasons which i should base my prayers on, i like mostly the bit of direction giving! GPS, what a good feeling to know i will never be lost again now that My God points and leads my way! Thanks Pastor M for being a used by God in a fruitful and directive way.

• Comment on God’s Positioning System (GPS) by Lee

  Posted: May 14, 2012, 1:47 pm by Lee

  Dear King’ori would you be so kind as to put me on your email list for the Mavuno sunday sermons that go into people’s inboxes? I used to receive the same but I have since changed my email. Please advice. I would be grateful for your assistance. God bless

• Comment on God’s Positioning System (GPS) by Waithera

  Posted: May 14, 2012, 11:18 am by Waithera

  Thanks Pastor M, yesterdays word really changed my outlook. I took time to have a conversation with God in a relaxed manner yesterday evening(i don usually pray) and i felt soo blessed and connected. Can u imagine in the middle of my prayer a verse came to mind and the words of the verse too(note i had not read the verse before). I was afraid to open the bible(doubting thomas) after the prayer to confirm whether its possible that God could speak to me with such accuracy. I gathered courage this morning and to my utter shock, the verse n the words in it were exact!!! Oh my goodness, God spoke to me. am soo humbled i could not help but just shed tears of Joy. I am soo happy and will continue with this journey(connecting with God). God bless you immensely as you continue to shepherd us.

• Comment on God’s Positioning System (GPS) by Grace Abigael

  Posted: May 14, 2012, 10:05 am by Grace Abigael

  I am the point in my life where i need to make decisions and it has been tough but after listening to Sundays sermon..i have a head start on how i am to approach this..Thanks Pastor M.

• Comment on God’s Positioning System (GPS) by GOLDEN GIRL

  Posted: May 14, 2012, 7:06 am by GOLDEN GIRL

  WOW !!!! Thats how i felt…..WOWED….if there be such a word….For the longest time…..i prayed only when i needed something or when things were not going right but hey i came to the realization that prayer is conversation with God,,,updating Him on my ‘STATUS”….of course He already knows……He is the author of mu life…. but by connecting with God i am acknowledging my status and seeking insight on what and how i can do whatever i do better….Being an early riser….i connect with my Father on my way to work…..takes me around 20minutes and the conversations are always so refreshing(anyone who sees me probably thinks i own a blue tooth…this lady always talking to herself)…but am not by myself….i am with my Father catching up and placing my day and life before Him to take over…..its such a precious time….I LOVE IT…..I encourage all of you to talk to Him just the same way you would talk to your therapist,friend,lover….without reservation or formality…keeping in mind that HE is the greatest therapist,most loyal friend and divine lover……WHAT A FRIEND I HAVE IN JESUS!!!!!

• Comment on God’s Positioning System (GPS) by hadd

  Posted: May 13, 2012, 6:58 am by hadd

  i now understand that prayer is important in ma every day life,thanks pastor m.GOD BLESS YOU.

• Comment on God’s Positioning System (GPS) by stephen omollo

  Posted: May 13, 2012, 2:28 am by stephen omollo

  That was awesome pst M. God realy spoke and I learned so much, that I felt I should have dragged everyone I know to church, God bless you so so much, amen

• Comment on God’s Positioning System (GPS) by Lian

  Posted: May 13, 2012, 9:11 pm by Lian

  The sermon was nice. Thanks pastor M.

  I know i should not give up on prayer but lately am resigned because iv prayed n fasted for a specific blessing but it looks as if its the one thing God has purposed to make me wait forever or said no along time ago only that i do not know.

  Nowadays if i pray i feel like am bothering Him. Am not attentive in church and i cannot wait to leave church and just be. I will try the conversation with God that you proposed. I hope it works.

• Comment on God’s Positioning System (GPS) by Oscar Osabinyi

  Posted: May 13, 2012, 11:29 am by Oscar Osabinyi

  ‘The word of God calibrates the mind, whilst prayer ‘calibrates’ changes our hearts…

  I also heard another say,

  ‘The value of persistent prayer is not that he will hear us, but that we will finally hear him’. William McGill

  Clearly, prayer attuned Christ Jesus heart to God’s will when he was faced with the toughest decision in his life. Prayer clarifies God’s will…

  O – that I would obey God by studying the scriptures daily and enjoining in a prayer lifestyle that will cause the world see the full manifestation of his glory in my time:

• Comment on Friends With Benefits? by tina

  Posted: May 11, 2012, 10:01 pm by tina

  this is great cn now understand

• Comment on Personal Trainer by Xtine

  Posted: May 11, 2012, 8:01 pm by Xtine

  I was glad when 2011 came to an end, it was one of the worst years for me. I crossed over to 2012 with a bang! Unlike 2011, I purposed to go through the one year Bible with discipline; I bought the Bible in Jan and began the journey. The month of Feb was fantastic, the Bible with prayer and fasting! It was the best experience of my life. My relationship with God has been fine until recently. I got health attacks one after another and have been in a season of lack.

  Were it in Jan or Feb, I would have no doubt that God will come through for me but not now. I bet I am just complacent with the circumstances and slowly my faith is dwindling. I ask God for strength to face each new day but the truth is I am tired of where I am. I realize that the THRIVE sermon was easier to listen to than to practice. God has given me promises but I am at a point where I say, enough of promises, let me see some action. He has shown me signs yet I doubt (I feel like the rebellious lot of Israelites). With all honesty I feel like its a test I can’t handle because I am losing my faith.

  I have heard so many times that God will provide the resources I need in his own time (What about my time is a question I ask?). I want my health back, I need the basic needs and other resources. God has expectations of me, what about my expectations of him? I hate where I am spiritually, I don’t want to be where I am. When I read a Psalm this week, God rebuked me for not believing yet he showed a sign.

  I really want to go back to where I was at the beginning of year, believing irrespective of my circumstances at the same time I want change in my life. What has happened to me? I want this to fade away. I want to enjoy the one year Bible like before because it is turning out to be just info. PLEASE PLEASE HELP ME!

• Comment on Personal Trainer by John

  Posted: May 10, 2012, 4:09 pm by John

  Pastor M. You were talking about my life.

  My name is J unshackledlifebilaregretsthriver! This week I had a few decisions to make that would influnce the rest of my life. I had tried talking to friends but I realized it was not helpful because I only got to hear what I wanted to hear. On Monday I had lost peace and I knew all was not well. I picked my Bible only to read 1 Sam. 13 where King Saul was rejected by God for:
  1. Failing to wait for Samuel
  2. He feared men more than God
  3. He had people’s pleasiosis (pleasing people not God)

  At that point I knew there is a relationship I was in where we didn’t wait for God’s approval and as a man I had failed to offer leadership. I had also taken God’s position in this person’s life. I just remember telling one of my friends its amazing how we take God’s position in peoples life and when we get frustrated we never understand.

  Psalm 68:1-2 says “May God arise and may His enemies be scattered” and so those who’ve made themselves idols they are scattered… The best thing was take full responsibility go back to the cross roads and find the right path.

  I have great friends who affirmed the relationship but I realized even if the whole nation affirms you and God has rejected you??????? its a great tragedy. We agreed to honor God based on 1 Samuel 13 and face life according to God’s order. A great decision and consequences to face but better be accepted by God than man.

• Comment on Personal Trainer by Daudi

  Posted: May 10, 2012, 3:43 pm by Daudi

  I’ll have to admit…never do i blog, but for this one time, i have to somehow try and share what this sermon did for me.

  Clearly, God set me up, to be seated there and listen through and getting convicted with every passing minute…was really tough for me. But God had a plan and a confirmation in the plan. For about a month, a close family member had been urging me to join a consistent bible reading program by the bible explorers club, but i kept coming up with reasons and excuses.

  Just the night before the service, i sent a final sms, confirming that i would NOT be able to begin the program because i was too busy. After sitting through the service, i was so convicted about the excuses (“the barriers”) i was creating for myself and the lies the enemy was putting in my head. Following the service, i had just enough time to go for the opening class and i praise God that i began the program having understood and learnt the fundamentals of reading God’s word and being consistent about it.

  I also immediately resumed and picked up on where “the one year bible” readings are at – and consistently doing this. I now know that discipline and character are not “fruits of the spirit” ..and that they can be divinely imparted…. NO. They have to be acquired through training….and to “win publicly requires us to train secretly” . I now follow an organized, structural, consistent Bible reading program that even allows me to monitor growth in reading, record barriers for waking up early to read, having a personal encourager among many other ways.

  My Key take out was Training and this requires Consistency, Character and Discipline. Thank you Pastor M. Cant wait for the other parts.

• Comment on Personal Trainer by Muthoni

  Posted: May 9, 2012, 2:11 pm by Muthoni

  Hi. okay, so I think this sermon series is that last straw to a drowning man kind of thing for me.. okay, maybe not, but I think you’ll get the drift..

  I recently quit my job because it wasn’t making much financial sense. when I quit, I had gotten another job and was awaiting confirmation that I STILL AM.. I thought I had it all figured out.. lakini LO!!! its not what i though it would be… I have questioned God, my decision to leave, my capabilities and purpose, you know all those things you question when the plans you had fall to the ground.

  I know, deep down God has a plan, I mean, don’t we all know Jeremiah 29:11? But for me, it was different, I love to be in control of my life, I claim to trust God and wait on Him but most times, I have a plan B just incase He doesn’t show up. IRONY huh?

  Well, this time round I don’t really have a plan B. actually I have purposed not to have a plan B. my mum recently called me and said, ‘I hope you are looking into other options just incase this job doesn’t go through’ and I replied and said, actually, not really, I HOPE God has a plan.

  I really don’t have any answers to any of the questions I have, but one thing I have purposed this month ni kuwacha mpango wa plan B and to take God at His word. I have purposed to seek for answers in His word, by spending time reading and studying His word. you brought out the sermon in such a simple way, I felt so silly for panicking yet this super strong guy has it all under control. Every time my mind starts thinking of what next, I take hold of every though and line it up with His word.

  We must be very careful to choose the right backdrop against which we live our lives. Our backdrop is eternity – not the tyranny of urgent demands made by a relentless world. Our backdrop is an old rugged cross and an empty tomb – not the temporary trials or painful circumstances we face in this very fleeting life.
  I WILL HAVE A TESTIMONY BY THE END OF THIS MONTH

• Comment on Personal Trainer by Voke

  Posted: May 9, 2012, 1:47 pm by Voke

  Thanks for the word Pastor M. The word come at the right time. A week earlier we had discussed with LG the need for the word as Christians, and then you spoke on Sunday. Yenyewe without the word we will make decisions that we will regret later. My fellow Mavunites let’s embrace the word – read, study, memorize, meditate. Barikiwa Pastor M.

• Comment on Personal Trainer by Elvo

  Posted: May 9, 2012, 8:09 am by Elvo

  Awesome piece.

• Comment on Pastor M Interview on KISS FM with Caroline Mutoko by Kui

  Posted: May 8, 2012, 6:08 pm by Kui

  Thank you Mavuno! God bless

• Comment on Ticked Off by Kesh

  Posted: May 8, 2012, 4:28 pm by Kesh

  I love this one…definitely detox!!

• Comment on Shackled by Kesh

  Posted: May 8, 2012, 4:21 pm by Kesh

  True, You can never love without getting hurt but somehow God always does his thing. So hang in there, keep loving!

• Comment on But By Grace by injili

  Posted: May 8, 2012, 3:31 pm by injili

  And a few weeks later still no sermons online. Aki woie please please post? I am waiting with baited breath to pertake of the awesomeness that Pastor S had to share with Mavunites. ( I know no one says, “please woie” anymore, but Please woie???

• Comment on Personal Trainer by Loved

  Posted: May 7, 2012, 7:40 pm by Loved

  @ Essy,
  God’s Promises for You: I Will Never Leave You nor Forsake You
  Hebrews 13:5-6. no matter how many times we walk out on God, He never gets tired of us, He’s ever ready to embrace us. Don’t reject God’s love.
  Keep on reading the WORD of God, train secretly even when you don’t feel like it,

• Comment on Personal Trainer by Niedwin

  Posted: May 7, 2012, 3:22 pm by Niedwin

  I have to admit Pastor M. It’s like you read guys’ minds,well mine I know. I went like soooo what is this about Joshua with God telling him to keep the Word close to him, I had to reread the verses again and again (as you were still preaching) and again.
  Truly reading the Bible is a hustle, but yet I am the same guy who wants PAP solutions to my issues.
  I will try,and no promise,to understand God’s word 5 to six tyms weekly with questions.

• Comment on Personal Trainer by Essy MG

  Posted: May 7, 2012, 3:10 pm by Essy MG

  Thank you pastor for such a good sermon, God bless you. The thing is for a while now i have been trying my best to read the bible regularly and have enjoyed every moment.
  I was believing God for something and was positive, had faith did all the bible advised me to, but was disappointed at the end. me being who i am, i was so mad said things i shouldn’t have said and now i feel like i just walked out of God’s love and house and i cant find my way back.
  At that time i felt like i couldn’t count on God i believed In Him and he just left me hanging. i also believed that i was like Judas, created or rather destined to fail, like all those people you read about in the bible who have been used so that god can be glorified…..
  I have thought of asking for forgiveness, but something just doesn’t feel right in my heart. I don’t know what to do, should i pray, should i go on reading the bible. It just doesn’t feel the same and i miss reading, i miss praying i feel doomed. I don’t know how the atheist do it. I know God is good, i know he is faithful, but still…. please help me with some sound advise, before its too late. thank you all in advance.

• Comment on Personal Trainer by Missy E

  Posted: May 7, 2012, 12:44 pm by Missy E

  hey missy…thang God you made that vow…best thing u ever did though hard…

• Comment on Personal Trainer by passionita

  Posted: May 7, 2012, 12:04 pm by passionita

  Reblogged this on Passiona Njeri.

• Comment on Personal Trainer by NK

  Posted: May 7, 2012, 11:06 am by NK

  Interestesting sermon. I have made a vow to read the Bible and learn from it to ensure that I start living a life bila regrets. May God give me courage and guide me as I embark on this journey.

• Comment on Personal Trainer by The vow

  Posted: May 7, 2012, 7:33 am by The vow

  The main reason I come to Mavuno is that ‘u get me’ the word always speaks to me. Thez no one time since I joined in 2009 that this hasn’t happened….yesterday was one of those days. About a week ago I made a vow to myself and to God to stop having sex. I am a very good woman,beautiful inside n out and I have never experienced the art of being single. After breaking out from an abusive marriage 6yr marriage I have dated 2 guys….but am not fulfilled its just sex and more sex nothing meaningful. Right now I am dating a lovely man,takes care of me loves me cooks for me,prays with me ….BUT…..(Drum rolls….) Isn’t ready to settle down just yet. I have taken the vow to stop having sex until I do it with my hubby from God,wat if this guy isn’t the one….is what am doing to my body fair….what will ‘The man’ enjoy when I finally find him? Ths r the qns that lingered on my mind for a while till I took the bold step. I know this will affect my present perfect rshp of 1 year terribly and he will never understand for even a minute but I am taking the risk. May the Lord guide me.

• Comment on Personal Trainer by kniphofia

  Posted: May 6, 2012, 5:03 pm by kniphofia

  Great sermon! Read it online! Truly the Bible is the best Personal Trainer. Let’s encourage each other to feed on it…. It’s a great diet!

• Comment on Personal Trainer by shebanjagi

  Posted: May 6, 2012, 3:36 pm by shebanjagi

  Reblogged this on shebanjagi and commented:
  Amazing word and insight…Right timing. I thank God.

• Comment on Stay The Course by shiru

  Posted: May 5, 2012, 10:03 am by shiru

  I gotta ask, am not married but I live with my baby’s father. all I remember is crying coz he will not be nice to me. I have done everything to save this relationship for my son’s sake. Forgiven him and welcomed him back to my arms even when he has cheated on me. Now i am at a place i cannot explain. Am tired of expecting the worst but hoping for the best. Am tired that he doesnt show signs of committment, tired that he never has kind words for me. Should I just go on?

• Comment on But By Grace by Ben

  Posted: May 4, 2012, 2:59 pm by Ben

  Amazing, powerful truths… I missed attending the sermon, thank God for King’ori and co. for making it available on the blog.

• Comment on But By Grace by Mark

  Posted: May 3, 2012, 3:50 pm by Mark

  letting go of unforgiveness and anger and letting God . Truly inspiring words (But By Grace). If every person can learn to forgive they can find true peace and hapiness that the Lord promises

• Comment on But By Grace by Gods child

  Posted: May 3, 2012, 3:48 pm by Gods child

  Hi Pastor M,
  Indeed this is powerful journey towards fearless influence whereby we who will know the truth and act accordingly will help the world see the difference in doing deeds that are real acts of God.

  Imagine the raped forgiving that rapist, that single mum who struggles day and night forgiving that irresponsible baby daddy, that jobless person forgiving that mean inhumane boss who renders him/her jobless..thats a Rreal act of God…then it is done by surrendering to God’s will without Fear or question ….. for By Grace…Amen pastor S..Im in totally I feel the theme

• Comment on But By Grace by shhh

  Posted: May 2, 2012, 3:23 pm by shhh

  But by grace…………..Thank you

• Comment on But By Grace by seventyxseven

  Posted: May 2, 2012, 7:25 am by seventyxseven

  Thank you for the reminder that we are ALL sinners saved ONLY by grace. The implications of this truth both simplifies and complicates what my response should be to those who offend me regardless of the “size“ of the offense. Your sermon implied that you have to put yourself on the shoes of the offender. Thats the easy part. The difficulty for me lies in the reality that in many cases the wounds caused (by childhood sexual abuse, severe verbal abuse, rejection) require a lifetime to be healed, Thats the part i find difficult. That for a lifetime I must bear the cost of anothrt person‘s choices.

• Comment on But By Grace by injili

  Posted: May 1, 2012, 10:48 pm by injili

  Thanks

• Comment on But By Grace by King'ori J. Maina

  Posted: May 1, 2012, 6:03 pm by King'ori J. Maina

  We are working on it Apologies for the inconvenience.

• Comment on But By Grace by injili

  Posted: May 1, 2012, 5:00 pm by injili

  Hi. I am in the US and my sister, a staunch Mavunite, has been raving about the last two sermons. I have waited and waited and waited and alas they have still not been uploaded. Please please please, can someone nudge the IT guy/girl and tell him/her that I will give him a high five if he allows me to pertake of the awesomeness of the last two sermons by posting them online. Thanks much!!

• Comment on But By Grace by blessed

  Posted: May 1, 2012, 12:18 pm by blessed

  I had carried a lot of things with me and the series on forgiveness taught me a lot . This might sound a cliche but I have been seriously blessed. It was my first time in Mavuno. I came because I was hurting and angry and yes now I am whole. I can’t wait to tell everybody that forgiveness is a choice its not an automatic wand. Everyday I choose to forgive and release people who have wronged me. Of course I hope they do the same for me

• Comment on But By Grace by shackle free

  Posted: April 30, 2012, 9:50 pm by shackle free

  Pst M, i never knew that i would be able to forgive my mum in law. i have been separated from the father of my two beautiful daughters for the last 7 years. he cheated on us and moved into our next door neighbor’s house. she was a single mum(much older than us) and had 3 children.

  when i complained to my mum in law, she and her daughters claimed that i was the one at fault and it was ok for a man to go out anytime he needed to so i was to continue persevering. it was really hard for me when i got no support from his family especially from his mum. the straw that broke the camels back was when i took leave, drove all the way upcountry(to western) with just my daughters to visit mum in law(their grandma) and she locked the door on us. this broke me into tiny pieces and didnt even know what to tell my angels. fortunately, my parents and siblings have always been there for me and have supported me all the way

  the father of my daughters eventually cut off all communication and completely abandoned us with no support at all. his family also never bothered but our God doesnt sleep – since i am a child of God (and my girls too) i continued being faithful to him. we have never lacked anything since their dad left. God in fact even granted me promotions at work, protection and abundant provisions. as for their father, he was eventually chased away and now he stays with his brother

  fast forward – my mum in law right now v.sick. has cancer of the oesophagus, is partially deaf and blind and currently admitted in hospital. when i got the news that she was sick, i together with my sister in law who had also been abandoned by her husband, when to visit our mum in law. she was very happy that we had gone to visit her and then the most profound moment happened. she told us that she wanted to go to heaven when she rested but she had resolved to first seek forgiveness from all she had hurt. she then confessed and asked us to forgive her of all the bad deeds she had done to our children and ourselves. my goodness…. i remembered all the evil things she had done and now she wanted forgiveness just like that. how????? to me she was UNFORGIVABLE but the lord who forgives immediately erased those thoughts and i forgave her. my sis in law also forgave her and for me, there was a big load in my heart that was lifted from me and i am now free from blaming my mum in law. we prayed for her and she too in turn prayed for us and we went away happy. as for my former husband, i had earlier forgiven him but I still need to tell him on his face. he apparently came to see his mum while we were in hospital but when he realised i was there, he took off and i never saw him – dont know where he disappeared to. tomorrow, i’m planning to take my older daughter to see her grandma in hospital. the younger one cant visit coz she wont be allowed into hosp so i’m praying that when mum is discharged, i’ll take my younger angel to visit her.

  forgiveness is difficult but possible.

  “God’s grace to me is the only reason I can forgive the unforgivable”

  Thanks Pastor M for that powerful sermon. God bless you, Pastor Carol and beautiful family. “Happy Anniversary too”

• Comment on But By Grace by Work-In-Progress

  Posted: April 30, 2012, 12:45 pm by Work-In-Progress

  Of all reasons why I ought to forgive,this one settled it. The fact that am not any better than my aggresor irrespective of my ‘good deeds’. I feel this sermon should have been the 1st in the Unshackled series because it clearly unmasks who we are,(we are all wanting before God). With that understanding am able to step down from my moral high ground and forgive. Thanks Pastor M for that message. Cant wait to discover more about The power of Grace

• Comment on But By Grace by martin mukoma

  Posted: April 29, 2012, 5:45 pm by martin mukoma

  wow it was an believable what
  an experience that has transformed
  my life n has brought freedom in my life mavuno mashariki is tha place 2 be thanks a lot pastor milton 4 such a wonderful sermon

• Comment on Let Go by mama K

  Posted: April 29, 2012, 1:49 pm by mama K

  am reading this inside the sermon,in tears there things that am trying to forgive and its not as easy as you put it,i have a baby shes 6months old and i have insane inlaws am not married bt i live with my boyfriend and when i was a month pregnant my mother in law wanted me to abort n even went to an extent of offering me ksh.10,000 to do it i cldnt i kept my baby my boyfriend supports us fully but the mother is always bringing up issues making my life hell,spreading lies and rumours about me my family she manipulates me to get her way am honestly tired she has done worse things that i cant write here but the worst is forcing me to abort my baby which i did not and i still dnt know if i can forgive her in the near future but am trying to accept things n try let go of this anger n bitterness
  patricia.

• Comment on Let Go by Readthisinchurch

  Posted: April 29, 2012, 10:35 am by Readthisinchurch

  Dear Mavuno,

  Pst S and Pst M i need you to read this to the church.. i am a businessman. 3 years ago i was working in partnership with a ‘company’ that we were meant to have a long term business relationship with. We had lengthy discussions, was introduced to the Director by a trusted friend, we did one or two small deals that went well. One day they came up with a proposal to do a joint deal worth Ksh 500,000. We were to jointly invest Ksh 250,000 each. After elaborate legal paperwork, numerous visits to each others offices and apparent guarantees, i deposited my Ksh. 250,000 into their ‘company’ account…

  Get this..hours later..all phones for all members of the other company went off!! No communication for a day made me worried..i dashed to their office the next morning..it was not in existence anymore!! I HAD BEEN CONNED!!! We are a small company so almost all our company capital had just been defrauded..Rushed to the bank we deposited and insisted on getting information of the account holder against the policy of the bank. The manager sympathized and offered us the little information she could give..The account closed immediately after our money was deposited!!!! This was by far the worst day in all my years of business.

  Thanks to my police friends, we caught up with the mastermind, he was arrested, charged and is now serving 7 years in prison. He has completed about 2 years. When in court, the judge gave us the option of settling out of court but i refused. His wife pleaded with me to be lenient but i still refused. I vowed if this man would walk free i would organise for him to be lynched to death by Kibera thugs. my family and friends told me never to forgive the man and let him rot in jail forever if possible.

  That was 3 years ago. I battled with unforgiveness for this entire period. Thank you for this months message. i wrote his name on the papers we filled and posted it on the cross and that was the last day i had to think about what happened and how he wronged me to the point that my business almost closed down. I plan to make a trip to where he has been imprisoned outside of Nairobi and tell him that i have forgiven him and will help his family cope with his absence until he is released. I am now free and at peace. Thanks Pst S for this message.

• Comment on Let Go by Blessed and Forgiven

  Posted: April 28, 2012, 1:29 am by Blessed and Forgiven

  Hi Pastor S,

  My Soul Says Yes’ but …
  Being childless for 13 years ….
  My husband, my best friend and my support walks out of our marriage …
  My business partners swindle me out of our partnership a million dollar business …
  And the stigma of bareness pushes me to depression, suicidal attempts and the society shuns me, talks about me and reject me…
  And just recently I was in a bad road accident incapacitated …divorce went through …then I gave a good friend a deal for 5M which he didn’t deliver hence I lost my job …..
  My friends …sorry I have none anymore ……
  I was in church last Sunday, I heard you, ofcourse mine was an “Nkt”
  Yes the cross, I hear you the cross ….
  Job lost everything in a couple of hours
  I have lost everything in a couple of 2 years or so… Marriage, Family, Busness, Career, Health ….
  The devil has got nothing on me now …Thank God

  Am shaking my head trying to find the words ….

  Let go …The Cross … Surrender ….

  How?

  How?

  I know God defines me ….Lakini kuna venye hata simfeel …Like Moses I may need a burning bush ….

  Does anyone feel me when you feel uselessss with an ssssss!

  I didn’t even say my x-husband is going out with my young friend who I mentored …who invited me to Mavuno and also my nieces best friend … Lol!

  Life is truly amazing…

  I need help and like juzi not yesterday …I thank God …I thank God because he is faithful.

• Comment on Let Go by Karimi

  Posted: April 28, 2012, 8:52 am by Karimi

  Hi Ps. S,

  This series couldn’t have come at a better time in my life. I avoid church with a load of excuses to self but last Saturday evening I had the strongest urge to hear what the Unshackled series is all about. I didn’t want to hear it but I need to hear about forgiveness.

  I had a couple of people I needed to forgive including my baby daddy. Surprisingly that wasn’t hard at all. There is just one person I cant bring myself to forgive. My mother. Reading this blog has been eye opening and very therapeutic thanks to the sermon and the testimonies but I am still bound with rage, anger and hatred for my mother and what drove me to church last Saturday was that it gets bad by the day.

  You see, for as long as I can remember, I have been the least favourite child to my mother. Even house helps were treated better than I. She had nothing good to say about me, and no matter how hard I tried to please her, it was of no use. I then tried to do what I love and all I got was discouragement.

  When I did make it in life, I did fell pregnant with a man who went into hiding and as you can imagine I didnt hear the end of it from my mother, in a bid to make them happy, I moved back home and concentrated on finishing the degree I had neglected. It was the hardest thing for I had to bear with my mother indirectly calling my a hooker, her going through my things, messages and letters and using whatever she found to fight me. She said things that werent true about me to my father and siblings and humiliated me at every chance.

  All the hurt made me hard headed and at some point I graduated from the offended to the offender. I told her hurtful things just to get her off my back. And avoided her like plague despite living under one roof.

  Its been that way for an year now and that anger and hatred i felt for her and others ruined all the relationships I had and all I have today is my daughter. I have no friends or famiy to talk to.

  Lately my life has started to shape up and she is discouraging me again only this time she is letting me know what a bad mother I am and Il get worse without her. I know its not true but it enrages me to a point I could hit her.

  I will be honest. I have no interest or need to forgive her. The pain i carry because of her is overbearing, and my logical mind is screaming nobody is worth that pain. I am setting myself to pack and move out with my baby as soon as possible and just shut her out of our lives. Forgiveness takes energy, faith and prayer while I dont want to even think of her for another second of my life. Harsh I know but my heart has lost all strength to face or deal with her. As in her case I not only need to forgive but I also seek her forgiveness something I doubt I will ever get from her.

  Another thing that makes this all hard is, I cant pray. I just cant bring myself to pray, not for food not for anything. Because of the hurt I wronged God in so many ways that I dont feel Worthy or have the right to ask Him for anything not even his forgiveness. And even so, its hard to believe He will hear and answer me. If it was not for Him, I wouldnt be alive today, what more can I ask for when He Keeps protecting and providing for my baby and I?

  I understand the sermon, and it makes so much sense but my heart is neck deep in hate and I dont I dont know how to get out. Exercising the above is so hard, i just want to forget it all and move on.

• Comment on Shackled by Restoring families

  Posted: April 26, 2012, 1:17 pm by Restoring families

  am so excited about this series because it is just what i need right now…I didnt even know how much more i had been carrying around!
  I wish my family was attending as well but i do share what i hear.
  I have a sister who hasnt opened up despite what she has gone through despite seeing a counsellor so much so that it has contributed to her being in hospital.She likes to pray and read the bible,its seems like something prevents her from reading God word or at least understanding and holding on to God’s promises for her life.
  We pray for her and ourselves as a family but we really appreciate a visit and prayers or in the least more prayers for her and ourselves…

  thanks in advance!

• Comment on Let Go by maisha810

  Posted: April 26, 2012, 8:37 am by maisha810

  Good morning Pst. Simon. I trust the Lord is keep you well. I watched this movie with my wife and daughter yesterday and felt that God was speaking to us more about your current sermon series. You probabaly may have watched it. It’s titled ‘The Grace Card. It illustrates the everyday opportunities that people have to rebuild relationships and heal deep wounds by extending and receiving God’s grace.Please recommend it to Mavunites. A must watch for those seeking to be ‘Unshackled’.
  This is a brief on the movie. Good day. [en.wikipedia.org]

• Comment on Let Go by May

  Posted: April 25, 2012, 2:16 pm by May

  Hi pastor S!
  Honestly i wasnt feeling you and i felt like telling you to get a life (sorry) but now i feel we are in the same world and planet.
  I have been hurt and wounded a million times and i have all the right to revenge.
  You just answered all questions i had and why i have to let go. Honestly you just ruined all my plans of revenge but saved my energy, resources, and a jail term. Well i will hand over my gun to the police but it felt so cool. I wont wish my pain to anyone. Am tired. I have decided to let go and kiss my past goodbye. I want to be free. Its hard to let go when your not even offered an appology. I forgive all. I do not know where to start but atleast this is somewhere.
  Thank you for this series and bringing me to a point of fresh start. For the first time am crying in my life. Honestly am hurting and i know i will heal in time. God bless you.

• Comment on Ticked Off by May

  Posted: April 25, 2012, 1:32 pm by May

  Thank you @seventyseven and @eva luna. I went through the series again and am geting it though i still have questions.
  Eva, its an encouragement to know atleast someone feels me and understands. I will also get there by God’s grace.
  Thank you!

• Comment on Let Go by bitter no more

  Posted: April 25, 2012, 7:42 am by bitter no more

  My boyfriend and close friend of two years got me pregnant, and sadly he bailed on me and left me with insults. It hurt..so much. But i decided i was going to keep my child. i told my family and sadly my mother rejected me. I was hurt. i felt rejected and alone, but still a small joy inside me coz i was excited about my child. sadly i lost the child and that was the biggest blow. i got extremely bitter and angry.

  I used to tell myself that if i saw that man again, i would push him in front of a bus or train…and the worst thing is i meant it. The bitterness reflected in all my associations, including my job. A close friend one day advised me to forgive him, and i thought to myself why should I?? Why should he get so lucky…free from responsibility..free from guilt then now i forgive him..NEVER!!

  But i prayed about it, and told God to take up my burden. and it was difficult letting it go…because it had become my baby. I wanted to hold on to resentment and bitterness. But He came through for me. It was like a weight lifted…FOR REAL!!! I sat that man down one day and told him my experiences, my lows and the loss of the child. i didnt try and look for guilt or remorse in the man…nope. I told him inspite of all those things, i choose to forgive him.

  I can say i am slowly forgetting the ordeal, but it changed me. I’m not bitter anymore. So No Forgiveness…i can relate with your dilemma in some way, but i urge you my sister, let go, forgive, it will be the best thing. And i am sorry about what you went through, i really am.

• Comment on Let Go by Euphy

  Posted: April 24, 2012, 10:43 pm by Euphy

  Hi un-forgiveness.
  There are three things I have learned with life i.e. LIFE GOES ON
  In all things God works for good with those who love him, who are called to his purpose (Read Romans 8- very inspiring)
  I could partially relate to your story.
  I thank God you have been praying about your issue, I just don’t know what you have been praying for though
  Esther walked in the palace as a PEASANT GIRL but walked out as a QUEEN, you walked into this past Lent season with bitterness and walked out of it the same because you forgot Jesus is the resurrection. He destroyed ‘the temple’ in 3 days and re-built it again. He can therefore resurrect in our dead finances, marriages, families, health, relationships, broken hearts and quest for God. We no longer live but it’s Christ that lives in us and in all our lives situations, he strengthens us and therefore we are are more than conquerors

  I wish you had more faith my dear. Enough to remind you that the Lord has been your Psalms 23, your Jireh for you and your baby’s needs and best of all that He brought you to a service at Mavuno that will change your life totally. I believe the only reason He hasn’t responded to your prayer yet is simply because you have not surrendered your life to Him (deny yourself, take up your cross and follow Him). No temptation has overcome you that is not common to man, God is faithful and will restore you in the end. Life is not a bed a roses and trials and temptations are there to build us. I urge you to dance in the rain. Jesus is still at your door knocking waiting for you to open and let Him in, make him your lord and savior by casting your burdens unto him, he cares more than your ex or anyone would. This is when your faith is tested the most, only God can change us. Let Him in your life and your situation. He is faithful, thank and praise him, ask for forgiveness for your own and your ex’s sins and trust him for your needs.

  Once you let him in, healing will set in, forgiveness will set in, a new caring hubby might come or he may come back… basically your wars will turn into worship. Get back to the battle field in the full Armour of God because It is always well in the END, If it is not well NOW, then it’s DEFINITELY it is not the END. The devil has taken away what you had but God-Our resurrection will create a new. Be still and know that he is God. Be the change you want to see in your life. Currently i’d urge you to focus on what’s important that is your son, yourself and God. Your tears, sorrow, pain, struggle so far have been seen by God, Vengeance is the Lord’s you will hurt more when you try to revenge let Him vindicate you.

  Stay blessed.

• Comment on Let Go by Ritah

  Posted: April 24, 2012, 7:19 pm by Ritah

  I asked God for the courage be able to send a mail to my ex because a phone call was no option. I did send an email to say that I forgive him for the pain he caused me. He was bewildered and said he wasn’t going to respond to that. He had been very cold and contemptuous to me the whole of last year and it was really painful. I had forgiven him but would occasionally feel anger. I feel freed by the message I sent. It was a good idea to acknowledge the hurt by informing my offender and extending forgiveness. Thanks pst. S for the sermon, it gave me the courage to do what I had dreaded to do. I was surprised to find out that my ex doesn’t even think he hurt me. I am glad he now knows. God bless you pst.

• Comment on Let Go by Muthoni

  Posted: April 24, 2012, 6:40 pm by Muthoni

  1 Corinthians 13:12
  Now we see things imperfectly as in a cloudy mirror, but then we will see everything with perfect clarity. All that I know now is partial and incomplete, but then I will know everything completely, just as God now knows me completely.
  I send u this verse and encoourage yoy to Set urself free 4rm all bitter hate and anger and allow yourself to be happy my dear, for what is ahead only He knows.
  Nobody said it is easy to forgive but nobody also said its impossible…

• Comment on Let Go by chomyet

  Posted: April 24, 2012, 4:32 pm by chomyet

  Kindly upload the sermon on You tube. Thank you

• Comment on Let Go by jane mumbi

  Posted: April 24, 2012, 3:59 pm by jane mumbi

  @ no forgiveness,i wont say its easy to forgive after all the pain he caused you but its possible from experience. i once was hurt by my baby daddy wen he said the baby was not his but i thank God becoz i decided to leave everything to Him and God gave me so much peace that i no longer think about the guy.just be strong let go and let God,pain will disappear with time.forgiveness is the best revenge God bless u.

• Comment on Let Go by Gods child

  Posted: April 24, 2012, 1:05 pm by Gods child

  I went through such (the man brought me his knew girlfriend so that I see how well he is carrying on with life) and my friend, you are being soo unfair to yourself. The baby daddy is stealing your joy, peace and happiness. It’s not easy and it takes time to move on with a child coz that’s constant reminder of pasts. But the sooner you look at the bigger picture the better, otherwise you’ll be regretting your whole life courtesy of someone who doesnt care.

  Focus and be selfish; change your approach and work on your own life let him find you making and building your life. Find hapiness and peace in other things but not in that relationship. Confide in someone whose been through a hearbreak and moved on. I personally prayed to God for direction. I also started going to church and joined a jogging club and started helping this single mother of four childen from four different men find bearing in life.

  And the transformation has been amazing I sleep and I enjoy every moment with my son without longing for his father’s presence. Avoid his circles and bar his calls or any communication, including facebook..Just MOVE ON!! You’ll find yourself forgiving yourself and himself.

• Comment on Let Go by ronnie

  Posted: April 24, 2012, 9:40 am by ronnie

  Dear no forgiveness…I feel your pain and disappointment. I acknowledge the hurt you must be feeling. However what I understood from the sermon is that forgiveness is “giving up”….”giving up things should be a certain way”…..giving up “expectation”….giving up “being right” about the way it is.

  Once that is done, the grace that is forgiveness can permeate your soul. There is no room for forgiveness when one is filled with the rage and disappointment. It is akin to a vessel being full. You can’t add anything to a vessel that’s full. May you experience the Almighty’s grace to forgive and work a new miracle in your life. That only happens when you allow him to do so. Create that space….give up…give up. Surrender that space to the redeemer.

• Comment on Let Go by PLM

  Posted: April 24, 2012, 9:25 am by PLM

  Hi Pst S,

  I have read the story of the prodical son several times in my life, but i have never seen it the way you brought it out on Sunday.

  My big sis and i have had issues with my mum and for a long time. We have struggled with forgiving her. There are efforts that have been made without much success. However, our 3rd and 4th born have a different relationship with her. We guess she realised the mistake that she we made with us. For a very long time i would see her talking to our 3rd born sister and they would laugh and i would wonder how and if at one point i would ever laugh with her like that? After all the bad things that she said to us when we were younger – she completely killed our inner man with her demeaning words and insults and made us feel like we didn’t belong; to an extent we doubted if we were her real kids. And she believed she was doing the right thing and she didn’t owe us an apology which we really longed for.

  But question 5 of your sermon answered my question, that i can forgive without an apology from her and that unforgiveness locks me out of the party like the elder son in the story of the prodical son.

  It actually hit me that i have also been a contributor to locking me out of the party i.e laughing with my mum and sister due to unforgiveness. i have surrendered that issue to Christ and asked him to give me the strength to forgive her and let her go. Probably with time i can also join the party and experience the best of humanity through forgiveness.
  May God bless you Pst S.

• Comment on Let Go by No forgiveness

  Posted: April 23, 2012, 11:00 pm by No forgiveness

  How do I forgive a man who I feel has taken all my joy from me, my happiness, my luck, my innocence? How, how?

  Before I broke up with my baby daddy we came to see you Pastor S, hoping that you will pray for us or tell us something that would keep us together, but luck wasn’t on our side – you were out of the office and I saw it as a sign to move on. It’s been 2 years now since the separation, I still remember vividly all he put me through, with the dates and time, I find myself lying to my friends and pretending to be whole again and happy, but I’m messing up, should I seek counselling, will I heal?

  How do I forgive him? Can God work a miracle on me and let all the pain disappear and forgiveness dwell in me? I can’t go on being bitter but I wish I could do something to him to make him pay for all the suffering he caused me…

• Comment on Let Go by Muthoni

  Posted: April 23, 2012, 10:29 pm by Muthoni

  Hello pastor S,
  I attended last Sunday’s sermon and watched how many pple had been wronged and were willing to forgive at that that’s commendable.
  However, I couldnt stop wondering how comes I had no one to forgive? Not that iv not been wronged quite on the contrary but iv always taken the saying to err is human!!
  I dont know if its a good mantra to forgiveness but it sure has worked for me. I made a decision a long time ago to be happy and to be free and when pple wrong me im always like “its their loss” and i move on swiftly.
  i didnt have anything to write on the piece of paper on Sunday because i realised i dont even notice nowadays when pple wrong me- sounds weird- but I am awesomely filled with bursting joy that surpases human understanding.
  Forgiveness is the ultimate cure of that Bile that has killed the self for most pple. It is my prayer that most pple discover this before the HATE chokes them to nothingness.

• Comment on Buyer’s Remorse by joy

  Posted: April 23, 2012, 10:10 pm by joy

  they say you never know anyone completely,not really at least.most time i must agree we even react to situation to how we feel,instead of analyzing it before.we rush into a lot of things because of how we feel more than we think and this affects most things in our lives.we need to ask God to guide us in every decision before we make them

• Comment on Let Go by ruth gitau

  Posted: April 23, 2012, 8:16 pm by ruth gitau

  I had a problem of forgiveness coz one of my pals did something evil to me but when I shared it with my boyfriend, he told me not to forgive. But now I have gotten a reason to forgive him. Thanks for the help.

• Comment on Ticked Off by pearlshidden

  Posted: April 23, 2012, 6:19 pm by pearlshidden

  Hi Awinoh,
  I think it’s best then not to let him back into you life, and be very firm about it.Take time to get to know God, and learn about your purpose and who God made you to be, God created you as a wonderful daughter and He has great plans for you, so take time, if you haven’t done Mizizi, please register to do, you will get rooted in God and get friends who will walk with you and help you keep it together.
  Mizizi is a 10week program that helps you connect with God, learn about His purpose for your life, and connects you to great God fearing friends, please try it out, and you won’t regret.

• Comment on Let Go by pearlshidden

  Posted: April 23, 2012, 5:53 pm by pearlshidden

  Wow God’s child,
  That is such a powerful testimony, and may God continue to give you the word that you need, so that you grow in Him, hold on to God always, He truly is the answer to everything.

• Comment on Let Go by pearlshidden

  Posted: April 23, 2012, 5:50 pm by pearlshidden

  Wow God’s Child,
  That is such a powerful testimony, that God has reached out to you in the midst of all this, and He is teaching you true love in the lesson of forgiveness, hold on to God, and His peace that surpusses all understanding will always be with you.

• Comment on Ticked Off by Awinoh

  Posted: April 23, 2012, 2:49 pm by Awinoh

  I feel like I went to church already!!! thank you all for the honest honest feedback.
  I’ve read hapo juu that forgiveness doesn’t have to come with reconciliation? so how do i tell my ex that?
  I’ve been through a co-habitation that ended with lots of mistrust and physical abuse. After a full year of habouring hate, “why did it have to happen to me”s, I can truly say that I have forgiven him but I’m not ready to have him back in my life again?
  Help!

• Comment on Let Go by Gods child

  Posted: April 22, 2012, 4:45 pm by Gods child

  Hi pastor S,

  Sadly I missed the sermon today but its all to the Glory of God.The sermon is soo deep and touches my life soo personally.All I can say is that it takes strength to forgive and everyday one has to pray and tell God please be with me because you are all I have and let me receive peace in forgiveness. Some situations are soo bad that the justice people seek can never repay the wong done.
  Here is my story!

  My baby’s father denied partenity after being in a relationship for four years hence I’m a single mum. Thereafter, I changed jobs (I needed more money to raise up this child). My new boss made a pass on me and when I put my foot down he fired me. I was jobless and the sole breadwinner. I’d no savings because previously I had to pay hospital bills for delivery and my baby was born with jaundice so we stayed in hospital for two weeks after delivery.

  The 1st week of April 2012 I came to church with a baby on my back (I had ksh 200 in my pocket and that baby had to eat, rent had to be paid}. I requested you to say a prayer for I was sooo hurt wounded, broken, betrayed, bitter, uncertain etc. And the God of grace heard that prayer opened a 1 month contract in an international NGO hence my absence.

  Prior to coming to church in anger and bitterness, I’d told someone to get me a gun and I was going to cripple my former boss. I’d also taken my baby’s father to court. Also I had asked to meet this successful prostitute so that she could train me on how to make a living.
  All these didn’t materialise because somehow I aknowledged that It will cause me more harm than good and I told God I’m surrendering to His will and He will give me justice and whatever I need He will provide in abundance. I cant wait to come back home and join the group that gave their life to Christ on Easter Sunday.

  By the way Ive never been at peace this much!

• Comment on Shackled by God's precious jewel

  Posted: April 21, 2012, 5:18 pm by God's precious jewel

  I am God’s precious jewel and I have been more than offended.I really want to work through my hurt and the first step was to share my story for the first time in my life:My father walked out on my mother and I when I was young then at the age of ten I was molested by a neighbour,something that I have never shared with anyone all these years.In my mind I have always looked down upon men because to me,they are all the same:egocentric and selfish.This has affected the way I relate with them.I am young and I want to work through my issues and stop building walls of insecurity around me.I want to let go because holding it within me hurts!!!!

• Comment on Ticked Off by Eva luna

  Posted: April 20, 2012, 8:38 pm by Eva luna

  Hi May!
  Thank you for your honesty. Believe it or not, i have been in the same situation so i understand how you feel right now. I wanted revenge so much that i bought a gun. But one day i woke up and decided thats not my life. I was bitter and the people who hurt me went on with their lives. I decided to be happy and free. The only way is to forgive forgive and forgive. I asked God to heal me and change my attitude. At the moment I’m not there yet, but he has given me grace to let go and I’m still healing. I still get hurt but i choose how to respond by not allowing situations and peaple to rob my joy. They are not worth you missing heaven because of bitterness.

  Speak to a counsellor or a lady pastor who will walk with you. Mavuno family walked with me (LG) and they still do. You are not alone. God loves you, so do we. I encourage you to go over the sermon series of this month again. I’m sure you will understand. Remember Christ also suffered so much, so he feels you even more.

  If its an abusive enviroment you may need change of enviroment. It will help your healing process.

  I run a law firm together with my fiancee and we can help you if you need legal assistance for free. What was done to you is wrong and needs to be stopped if there is continuance abuse. Like i said, speak to a pastor or professional christian counsellor and we will be able to map a way out.

  As Mavuno, we love you. You are beautiful, strong, intelligent, honest, forgiving, caring and loving. You are worth more than rubies. You are a phenomenal woman. Do not let bitterness kill all the beauty you have. It is your right to be free. Choose to be free.
  We are praying for you that you will walk in freedom love. You have us and WE ARE FAMILY!

• Comment on Ticked Off by jayson mbogo

  Posted: April 19, 2012, 10:55 am by jayson mbogo

  Wow this was a sermon of sermons, so real and to the point, moved to tears. I’m glad I watched it from the comfort of my home. Looking forward to Sunday’s sermon. Hopefully i will be brave enough to come to the church. Thank you so much pastor i feel so much lighter…God bless

• Comment on Ticked Off by seventyxseven

  Posted: April 18, 2012, 8:20 pm by seventyxseven

  May, thank you for sharing your story and for keeping it real. I think that many people on this blog understand where you are coming from in terms of wanting and exacting revenge. Sometimes revenge makes so much sense. I am sorry that you have endured so much abuse in your life. I pray that God would heal you and all of us on this blog so that we may go towards our destiny unshackled.God bless you for your honesty.

• Comment on Ticked Off by maisha810

  Posted: April 18, 2012, 3:34 pm by maisha810

  Your anger will not bring about a righteous life in others. [www.gracecreates.com]

• Comment on Ticked Off by Abbi

  Posted: April 18, 2012, 1:33 pm by Abbi

  Pastor S,
  Your message this past Sunday truly was God sent for me. And to think I almost got derailed doing other stuff. I believe I was meant to hear the message for a reason.

  Hurt is a strange thing and it can consume us until we can barely recognize ourselves. Thats my story. I was hurt, I was angry but I didint quite deal with the emotions like I ought to have. I didnt know how to let go. I felt betrayed beyond words can express…and when I got exhausted trying to heal, I decided to give up and turn the tables. I then became the one to cause the hurt. I stooped to a level i never imagined I could.

  Your message partly said that we shouldnt let the hurt change who we are at core. That we should not let our morals be compromised. That in essence, we ought to be the bigger people. I honestly wish I had been the bigger person in my case. Two wrongs dont make a right, they just compound an issue into an entire mess. God has been gracious to me and somehow my issue is being restored slowly…but nonetheless, being restored.

  Its hard to let go of hurt. I know. But I learnt this week to acknowledge it and deal with it and move on. To not let my issues define or alter me. Am not perfect, am not there just yet, but Im definately better than I was before.

  God bless.

• Comment on Ticked Off by Lee

  Posted: April 18, 2012, 12:28 pm by Lee

  It takes a lot of humility, courage and grace to acknowledge let alone publicly declare that one has wounded and crashed another. … The misconception is that families/men of the cloth always have it together – an ever-happy, constantly spirit-filled and spirit-guided life with never-ending holy laughter hence no room for misery! I was humbled by your declaration about how your relations with your wife in your early marriage years had rendered your wife dull and less vibrant compared to the person you had married.

  Mavuno Pastors (Pastors Muriithi, Linda and Simon) bless you all for having kept it real in sharing your real life/marriage stories. I bless God to know that our challenges as the “ordinary folk” are actually normal … and we can overcome by God’s grace. It just takes the decision to stick it out like Pst. Linda said in staying the course and God usually does His thing as we struggle to walk the narrow scriptural path – just not humanly easy …

  That said, indeed marriage is a tough institution and spouses consistently cause each other hurt – knowingly, unknowingly and sadly at times – deliberately. It takes IMMENSE self-will, abundant grace and LOADS OF HELP from above, to let go of the hurt (you can imagine you are consistently and daily in each other’s space) in order to enjoy an abundant life despite the ongoing hurt or memories of past hurts. It is a beautiful thing to eventually consciously and deliberately get to that place of internal peace despite the turbulence all around occasioned by other people’s often bad choices/actions. Indeed Pst. Linda … I am reminded of the “EFFORT” story you spoke about in “Staying the course” … giving up on people is way too easy … and we all know nothing good comes easy … Effort people … relentless effort … keep soldiering on!

  On another note, this week I have been mulling over Proverbs 18:22 that says ” … he who finds a wife, finds a good thing and obtains favour from the Lord.” What does this scripture really mean? Why does God tie favor to a man through a wife? I wonder if there are men who have fully grasped this concept and what their marriages are like as a result …. I would be glad to get some views –

  Thanks Pastor S for the passionate sermon reminding us we need to free ourselves from the grip of people’s bad choices!

  Grand blessings!

• Comment on Ticked Off by justagal

  Posted: April 17, 2012, 1:21 am by justagal

  Pastor S, what if i’m the offender?

• Comment on Ticked Off by justagal

  Posted: April 17, 2012, 1:15 am by justagal

  thank you forgiven for sharing your experience:

• Comment on Ticked Off by Imani

  Posted: April 17, 2012, 8:13 pm by Imani

  The worst thing about forgiving is that you have nothing left to be angry about, and wheres the fun in that? I am facing a situation at work- will probably be laid off at the end of the day- everyhting has happened but the drumroll! i was so ticked off at my bosses who set the whole bal rolling.

  I have survived- barely- a series of relationships that have left me scarred and scared. Anger adequately described the after feelings.

  IT WAS GOOD TO BE ANGRY, AND EVEN BETTER TO STAY ANGRY! It’s the stuff vendettas are made of, drama, jeez, fun! Then the sermon, and I actually laughed. Its not that I cannot forgive, its that I do not want to!

  Why would I want to let go?

  Then as I listened Pastor M, you said it will make me lighter, and I realised that I will probably go further and faster if i am carrying less trash, so I stood, held my palms out, let go, and was set free myself.

  I have not spent many calm afternoons like that in a long long time, time, though I should actaully say never, but enough drama for now.

  Thanks Mavuno, thanks Pst. Simon, and my brothers who make church such a place of coming home. God BLESS,again and again.

• Comment on Ticked Off by May

  Posted: April 17, 2012, 7:18 pm by May

  Pastor, I honestly don’t feel you! At least what you are saying ain’t in the real world, may be in fairy land. Do u really know what pain is… When you are rejected even before birth, when the people you love most hurt you over and over again, when you lose your whole family and left alone in the world, when all your life you have experience physical, emotional and sexual abuse, 20 good years, do u know what it feels like to sleep on the streets and lose everything? Do you know what it feels like to be sold or sleep hungry?

  I prayed, fasted and loved, I never got back, I forgave and hoped someday they will change or even give me a fake sorry but no. It gave room for them to hurt me more. Now all the love I felt turned into hate, anger and resentment. That’s what forgiveness does, they hurt me more instead i became a hostage other than being free.

  Pasi, after church there is a real world. Out letting out, people gossip in the name of prayer, crying is not only lame but weakness. It doesn’t help but to think of how to solve.
  I’m saved but most of the time it feels God is on vacation or asleep. It’s easy to say all that when your life is not a living hell. You know everyone rejecting me even death.

  Pasi it’s easy for y’all to point a finger and accussations at a person holding a trigger and not know the reason why. You know revenge deters further injury from those who hurt. Honestly it feels good especially if you have nothing to live for. Pasi you inspire me and always have, you have taught me a lot.

  But in this, I’m not feeling you/geting you. When even justice is corrupted what do u do? You don’t know wat real pain is. I agree with you though that hurting people hurt others. I’m hurting but I intend to hurt only those who hurt me. If I should care about how they feel, did they care about how I would feel? This happens not in hollywood but real life. I stand to be corrected!!

• Comment on Ticked Off by leahlita

  Posted: April 17, 2012, 5:55 pm by leahlita

  *He /She….. My neighbour is a she!

• Comment on Ticked Off by leahlita

  Posted: April 17, 2012, 5:54 pm by leahlita

  The story of forgiveness!!! It didnt hit home until 3p.m when my neighbour came to see me and told me the story of his dad who disappeared 30 yrs ago..( her mum was 4months pregnant with her when he left) and only called last week from TZ in a hospital ailing from Prostrate cancer!!!
  Guess what?? they went picked him from TZ and hes currently receiving treatment at Nairobi hospital!!! I am still trying to Digest this!!! Forgiveness redefined?!!!

• Comment on Ticked Off by Work-In-Progress

  Posted: April 17, 2012, 11:17 am by Work-In-Progress

  ‘Ticked Off’ was so provokin abit uncomfortable yet so necessary. Uncomfortable because I had it all planned out how am goin to make someone who wronged me pay for it. Then the preacher preached and here I am required to obey.

  Yes I understand its only through lettin go of the bitterness and resentment that I can trully be free. However its hard to quash all the negative thoughts of revenge. I have prayed for forgiveness for conceivin evil thoughts but yet every time I think of the people who wronged me,the bitterness and anger swells up in me like a mighty flood.

  I seek to be Unshackled and liberated. Church pray with me.

• Comment on Ticked Off by Loved

  Posted: April 17, 2012, 9:45 am by Loved

  As pastor S was speaking, i realized yes i have forgiven and let go of everybody who hurt me thanks to SIMAMA but i had become a prisoner of my past, i treat men as if they are about to hurt me, no wonder they do hiding behind ” I’m being cautious” i don’t let myself enjoy the friendships God has given me and so I’ve been shackled by fear of rejection.
  I don’t want to open up because i anticipate abandonment, and because of that i have hurt a number of them, i go to great heights to seek attention and when i don’t get i retaliate am not a victim of hurt any more but i am slowly becoming an offender, i do it so innocently.
  I want to be free and i am FREE.

• Comment on The Story Of Love by Forgiven

  Posted: April 16, 2012, 10:49 pm by Forgiven

  Hey Cece,
  I feel your pain having gone through a similar experience and i would like to encourage you that the Lord will give you Beauty for ashes, strength for fear, gladness for morning and peace for despair.

  Dont give the devil a chance to isolate you and get you feeling inadequate. take it all to God in prayer, let Him wipe your tears and I pray and believe you will find a soulmate who deserves you.

  Dont dwell on trying to figure out what you did wrong, he walked let him go. When I realised my ex had not only bn unfaithful but made someone pregnant in the process I was broken beyond words, never thought i cd rise again,or ever smile but God graciously raised me up, and restored my joy. Never been this a happy n blessed .

  Please cancel the bad thoughts and claim His blessings over your life. God loves and deeply cares for you . Your dreams are not shattered and being alone out of a bitter experience aint your portion. I speak Forgivenness, healing and restoration over your life. Do yourself a favor by letting him know you forgiven him and release him, even pray for him.
  I pray that the Lord will restore you give you such joy and peace.

• Comment on Ticked Off by raul

  Posted: April 16, 2012, 5:09 pm by raul

  I am also at such a point, forgiving oneself and forgiving others aint an easy thing but God has been faithful. Each day brings new teaching and am slowly letting go off the bitterness and anger!! the devil is a liar and when you are at your low points asking the why’s that’s him trying to take you back down. Refuse in the name of Jesus, easy it’s not but again In God’s name nothing is impossible. When we are mad at someone irrespective of who did what, we basically carry them for the period that we are mad and filled with bitterness. Release them and yourself, pray for them and leave everything to the Lord in prayer!!! People self destruct thinking they are hurting the other person, it’s God’s temple you are messing with… Prayer and word makes it all right. All is well.

• Comment on Ticked Off by Mimi

  Posted: April 16, 2012, 3:45 pm by Mimi

  GLORY BE TO GOD. HE IS INDEED THE TRUE ALMIGHTY GOD.

• Comment on Ticked Off by kirungu

  Posted: April 16, 2012, 3:10 pm by kirungu

  The sermon on Sunday taught me one huge lesson… to be Grateful . It reminded me of the blessings that God has bestowed upon my life . I realised that I fall in the agressive category when it comes to dealing with emotions. I also realised that i talk and “bitch” to my close friend when I am angry.

  I realised that although I have been hurt in relationships. Through time and the grace of God I have let go of those people who hurt me.

  I am thankful to the Lord. I do not take his blessings for granted.

  I will pray for all those who are shacked and held by hurt and betrayal from others. That they will find liberation and peace in Jesus.

• Comment on Ticked Off by Ms Red

  Posted: April 16, 2012, 2:43 pm by Ms Red

  Thank you for the sermon pastor S, i faced a four year relationship with a man who left me with pain,anger and a low self esteem with the continuos infidelity and emotional abuse.It took me long to forgive him.I turned to God with tears ove and over again and prayed for peace of heart.God gave me strength to forgive him and
  took that opportunity to inform him that i forgive him.I felt lighter and whole again.Forgiveness is not an easy step.Trust me the moment you forgive you will feel a load released from you