I sometimes can’t figure out why I have to go through all this yet God is there; does HE see me does HE even listen 2 me? It all started when I was raped immediately after 4th form and my life changed. I had vowed to remain pure till marriage but here comes a heartless man and decides otherwise. I have been soo bitter that it has led me 2 make very bad decisions then.
At 24, I met a good man who convinced me that i don’t have to take it out on all men. I was happy because I felt loved but that changed because when I became pregnant he abandoned me and told me he was flying out. Little did i know that he had another girlfriend and at that time she was about to deliver their baby. He treated me so bad, I didn’t know what to do. I opted to terminate it since i didn’t know how i was supposed 2 raise the baby with no job and no father – I have never gotten a stable job ever since. I sometimes think that I’m being punished for my mistakes. I am soo afraid of the future, in my life I just feel forgotten I don’t have anythng to look forward to and I have given up soo much in life to a point where I didn’t pray anymore. I gave up even on God. I am afraid that I’m slowly fading away and wish someone would reach out and tell me that all is going to be okay. Please pray for me; I need closure!!